you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you could be the one i'll always love

you could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
you could be the one i'll always love

i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy
mending broken
pieces of the life i had before

first there was the one who challenged
all my dreams and all my balance
she could never be as good as you

you could be my unintended choice
to live my life extended
you should be the one i'll always love

i'll be there as soon as i can
but i'm busy mending broken
pieces of the life i had before

(repeat)

before you

So here's the absolute truth

I love one guy and I want to date another

The guy I love-if we seriously ever dated within the next year....we'd kill each other

but the guy I want to date-there's no sexual attraction-at least not for my side

So the one I love?

We've dated before...and I've broken up with him twice now....but I still loved him....I still do...

And I've begun to believe in this childish fantasy that maybe, just maybe, we can grow out of this stage that we're in.  But I've also, in the back of my head, tried to realize that life isn't some fantasy-that I may just have my hopes way too high, and might just be heading for disaster...

I love him, but why?

He's such an asshole to me...He's said so many horrible things.  Is it the Jerry Springer complex..where you love a man no matter what...even if he acts like he hates you?  Am I blind or is my intuition working overtime?

I love him because there is no other one but him.  And I believe in us in the future because I think we found each other just in time, but got together all too early.

But I already see growth, or I have on my side...After he quit work (we both work at the same place, or did), I forced myself to be independent and just let him out of my life right now....And with that, I did become independent, and very self reliant

My story of my first semester in college is...interesting....but I think could stand as a story that I'd love to tell future college freshmen

I stole pita bread when I was hungry....Paid for my gas a few times in pocket change because my pocket was the richest thing near me.

I drove to places I've never seen before, and found a second love in those towns...I love those hills because it's nothing like little saigon....no massive traffic in which you swear that people just dont know how to drive and that there must be some asshole just handing out driver's licenses

There were so many opportunities for me to take- one which included a job substitute teaching in the afternoons in yorba linda...another on campus where i'd be a new student orientation leader

I got so many more.....

and there are so many more opportunities to come...

and so many people i've met that have already touched my life...though probably haven't changed it

I got close to a guy I only had small talk with in high school

and there we were last week, holding hands and driving out to who-knows-where...getting lost in a town of hills and lights nearby my beloved city

and with my head still in this stage of guilt because I still loved the EX...the EX who changed my life...the EX, who without him, I wouldn't have gotten close to the guy friends I have now

the EX, the ex I've been waiting for to come back home...not for a true reunion...but so that I could go back upstairs...to his room..close the door

and let it be what it is

brutally honest? yes, perhaps....

but I've missed that

I've missed him both ways, but I know I can only have one...even if you'd consider it pretty rawnchy...

You and I Both

Jason Mraz



Was it you who spoke the words 
That things would happen but not to me 
All things are gonna happen naturally 
Oh, taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side 
And balancing the whole thing 

Oh, but at often times, those words get tangled up in lines 
And the bright light turns to night 
Oh, until the dawn it brings 
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me 

Cause you and I both loved 
What you and I spoke of 
And others only read of
Others only dream of the love 
Oh, the love that I love 
Love-ah-love-ah

See, I'm all about them words 
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words 
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words 
More words than I had ever heard 
And I feel so alive 

Cause you and I both loved 
What you and I spoke of 
And others just read of 
And if you could see me now
Oh love, love, you and I, you and I 
Not so little, you and I anymore 
Mmm hmm
And with this silence brings a moral story 
More importantly evolving 
Is the glory of a boy 

Cause you and I both loved 
What you and I spoke of 
And others just read of 
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of 
I'm finally out of 
Finally de de de de de de de, well I'm almost finally, finally
Well, I am free, oh I'm free 

And it's okay
If you had to go away 
Oh, just remember the telephones 
Well, they're working in both ways 
But if I never, ever hear it ring 
If nothing else 
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else 
And that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang 

Cause you and I both loved 
What you and I spoke of 
And others just read of 
And if you could see me now 
Well, then I'm almost finally out of 
I'm finally out of
Finally de de de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally
Finally out of words

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE!!!

BRIGHTER THAN SUNSHINE by aqualung



I never understood before 
I never knew what love was for 
My heart was broke, my head was sore 
What a feeling 

Tied up in ancient history 
I didnt believe in destiny 
I look up you're standing next to me 
What a feeling 

What a feeling in my soul 
Love burns brighter than sunshine 
Brighter than sunshine 
Let the rain fall, i don't care 
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine 
Suddenly you're mine 
and it's brighter than sunshine 

I never saw it happening 
I'd given up and given in 
I just couldn't take the hurt again 
What a feeling 

I didn't have the strength to fight 
suddenly you seemed so right 
Me and you 
What a feeling 

What a feeling in my soul 
Love burns brighter than sunshine 
It's brighter than sunshine 
Let the rain fall, I don't care 
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine 
Suddenly you're mine 

It's brighter than the sun 
It's brighter than the sun 
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine. 

Love will remain a mystery 
But give me your hand and you will see 
Your heart is keeping time with me 

What a feeling in my soul 
Love burns brighter than sunshine 
It's brighter than sunshine 
Let the rain fall, I don't care 
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine 
Suddenly you're mine 

I got a feeling in my soul ...(repeat chorus to end)





I really like this song....